….don’t do it …..no ,no do it screams the other half of me …
All this ,has been brought on by my imminent holiday . Half of me is already there , whilst the other half of me is debating why I shouldn’t go.
That half that is refusing to go , is that side of me that feels currently battered & bruised by various events the last few years . It is that part of me that feels safe in the familiar ,even if that means the four walls of my house.
How I wish its voice was quiter ,but currently it is on red hot panic mode .
Despite all that inner noise ,that part of me that craves to experience and see new things ,calmly tries to take over and quieten my little stressed,anxious part.
I want to move myself from the place of feel the fear and don’t do it ,to feel the fear and do it.
Fingers crossed I do it ,one week remaining .
(All this convincing for sure would have been much easier in the summer or if the destination was dry,warm and sunny…!Winter makes the challenge just a bit harder ).