I sit in darkness …

#mind

#light

#healing

This year I have found myself frequently sitting in the dark …somehow I have developed an aversion to the artificial lights …

Well , I don’t mind soft dimmed lights …Makes moving around the house, so much fun…

The only areas with full lighting on are the bathroom and the kitchen …

But in the living room , I prefer the darkness allowing only for the distant lights from other rooms and TV’s light, to sip through …

There in the dark and in silence, that’s where my soul finds solace and my mind rests…

There in the dark , I am more appreciative of the flicker of a candle, of the soft rays of a lamp-post penetrating through the big window….There in the dark, my anxious mind seems to be able to slow down…

 

#naturalstatesofbeing #gramaticallyincorrect

#solace

#rebalancing

#recharging

Have you noticed…?

Have you noticed how exhausted you feel around stressed people and how those that struggle with accepting change make you feel?

This year,I have become a lot more aware of this . Due to work circumstances ,my colleagues and I have undergone a tremendous ammount of change . This change has brought out to play Miss Anxiety ,Mr Egoist ,Mr Must I do everything around here ,Miss They Got it in for me , Mrs Paranoia, Mr Push and Shove and Mrs Oops I DID Again .

With so many emotions ,wills ,fears and conspiracy theories released in my work atmosphere, this year has left me feeling drained ,in need of some serious R&R and with an intense longing for isolation .

My inability to protect myself from absorbing all that is around me, potentialy might have something to do with my older state of being (such things were so much easier to handle in my 20s rather in my 40s , where they really ?)…and with finally admitting to myself that actually, I too struggle with change … ✳✳✳ #mind

I used to think …

…that I was good at writing ,but the last few years everytime I stare at a blank page the only thing I seem to be able to do is Doodle … I sincerely hope that blogging will help me find my writing voice again !!!

Small Steps at a time ✅